Old Bad Habits

by Fatty

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Not long after completing the Daily Heroic EP, Fatty lost her brother unexpectedly to a serious and rare blood condition. Old Bad Habits is much more than an investigation into darkness. Fatty uses humor to illuminate the darkness and to inspire change. Via Local explores the numbness of a commute between grief and opportunity after losing her brother. Make It So is a hard-hitting, frantic, and devilishly geeky continuation of the Judge Combat and Fatty collaborative antics you loved from Arachnoflowbia. Sweetie Pi gives insight into an obsessive, divided sense of self, and a numbers-related coping mechanism to be able to exist. Where We Left Off is a personal track, a letter of sorts, allowing the listener to experience Fatty's grief. On the title track, Fatty brings in themes from Game of Thrones to explain the rap game and social navigation. Finally, Accio (Nerdy Girls) which delighted PAX East crowds, takes on topics like social anxiety, drug use, and gender dysphoria, cleverly disguised as magic.

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released September 8, 2012

written & performed by fatty
produced by the dishonorable judge combat
mixed & mastered by th3ht

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Track Name: Via Local
slant like dickenson, anne like sexton
images organic like a frost collection
and i'm at best when the rest is stretched thin
bext tooks text books yes dyslexic
many times tested not yet bested
little kids flex street cred get tucked in bed
i don't give a fuck not interested
i'm a lyricist lyrics what i'm blessed with
same complexion as eminem and asher roth
haters make it racial saying i should never rap at all
they be better off not pissing masters off
maybe it's a gay thing i should write a folk song
i would say the joke's on you but i can't
cuz i'm still broke better get a new plan
just calm down gotta contact my producer
get a new sound get found be a true star

you have or you have not
you talk about your talent or your treasure
you don't stop
attractive and clever? even better
you'll go pop
and nobody will notice til the moment your show stops
train slows down at the station and it's utica
crown heights now
you're impatient for your future
better calm down gotta contact your producer
get a new sound get found be a true star

yes i'm anonymous trying to get on with this
job but it's honestly gotten so monotonous
on the clock i'm robotic no consciousness
on the block i'm nobody no audience
and i gotta get gold gotta profit from my poetry
gotta book a show or how the hell they gonna notice me
god i'm getting old, going on and on about a dream
but i ain't gone slow until the road rip out from under me

(chorus)

i'm out of contact aside from judge combat
people keep on calling me from parties i belong at
but i don't want that ya'll have got the wrong fatts
ya'll had better guess again, let me kiss my dog tags
ya'll are all at the platform i belong at
i'm riding local but i'm eyeing that express track
kinda hopeful every time i get a check cashed
maybe loco wishing somehow i could press fast
forward i'm on tour around the world signing autographs
selling out in stores around new york, order more of that
thanks for the support, every corner store a fatty hat
anyone ignoring me before had to take it back
never faking facts, only stating hope and fears
take the tape and play it back
try to say it's smoke and mirrors
only magic here is real, fattymac be lacking peers
abracadabra rapping tracks into cadavers yeah
Track Name: Fatty (featuring the Dishonorable Judge Combat) - Make It So
fattymac's been battlestar galactin
passive, out of action, off track, yeah slackin'
but i'm back attackin every frakkin last kid
who ever frakkin acted like an asshole if i had been
a battle rapper or an actor in the past then
people lacking any natural talent, skill, or passion,
still be talking smack saying fattymac's a has-been
i have the bridge XO my asshole, i'm ya captain
talking all your trash, walls compacting in the trash bin
must be off your rocket, out of oxygen and gasping
passing through my galaxy, gassing up your cockpit
throwing up ya prospers like doctor frakkin spock did
you talk the talk but when you walk you just ewokin
i'm spooky like communion, i'm christo frakkin walken
thinkin you can walk up in my holideck and interrupt my vision?
is you listening? you think i frakking give a fuck?

far away not long ago
where nobody had gone
you were longing to go
far away not long ago
you were wishing on the stars
now you're mission control
i got away, i got a ways to go
if you want a new hope i gotta make it so
say we all it'll happen again
like it happened before, may the force be with
you

dammit, jim, i jammed a widget in my dashboard
10 - 4, you're kidding! i'm lying. LOST? Flash forward.
Dap's on a launch pad, shape the world, auto-cad
fattymac's a rapper not a doctor, you're a womp rat
each sixteen is a T-16, I'm on tattoine, PvE? Yeah, combat.
you see impossible, better check your opticals
i see a meme, what i did there was illogical
yo dawg, i heard you like slant rhymes
yoda told me do or do not, so i can't try
i can't lie, to hell with any haters i can handle them
but can't tell if i'm elliott or if i'm more an alien
pygmalion i'm mythical with androids getting physical
if i'm a star my fans are far off planets in elliptical
orbit, i'm auror borealis too, i'm mystical
mad you're crews ignoring you for me? dark matter: typical.

far away not long ago
where nobody had gone
you were longing to go
far away not long ago
you were wishing on the stars
now you're mission control
i got away, i got a ways to go
if you want a new hope i gotta make it so
say we all it'll happen again
like it happened before, may the force be with
you

it's the j-u-d-g-e part emcee part astronaut...
blasting through the mass of gasses faster than the human thought
a massively crass bastard, my setting dos dastardly
girls screaming "faster please!" let me unsheath my blaster, jeez
it's the final frontier, show you the way it's won
cause i'll be shooting laser guns until the days are done
a singularity a ray of sun, i'm pure light
lose your sight, this ain't a battle, this a gorn fight
oh judge, you're so goram ridiculous
activate my cloaking shield so I'm not quite so conspicuous,
step inside the airlock, brush my robes off
trying to get these green skinned bitches to take their clothes off
they call me Han cause i only roll Solo
i'm like the one that got away like Tomassie, Rolo
My chaps is leather and my tie is bolo
What's the baddest space cowboy? Just plead nolo
Oh no. I'm too drunk. Please make the beat stop
Fuck it, more space beer, keep 'em coming Gleep Glop
Engage the engines and set phasers to "murder"
I must be a princess cause y'all are nerd herders.

far away not long ago
where nobody had gone
you were longing to go
far away not long ago
you were wishing on the stars
now you're mission control
i got away, i got a ways to go
i got away, i got a ways to go
if you wanna new hope, i gotta make it so
Track Name: Sweetie Pi
People say what goes around, comes around
i’m underground, underground i’m doing fine
promise you i’ll let you down
sweetie pi if it gets around
i need silence; you keep making sounds

3.14159 your eyes I’m done for 26535
don’t know if you realize, don’t know if you see
8 my 9 OCD 7 9 3
I memorized the decimals I’m mesmerized the decibals
are low although the levels of your heart are
so incredible like boom buh boom boom
right in tune with mine
when i think about you i think about pi
i bring it back full circle on the track, just
don’t know how to act so i tackle mathematics
inexact fractions that cannot be expressed quick
try and calculate this fucking day 23846
we in the park now 2 6 4 its dark now
3 bark 3 fucking dog 8 calm down
3 she’s adorable 2 me 79
better find time to breath 5 0 i think she like me 2

People say what goes around, comes around
i’m underground, underground i’m doing fine
promise you i’ll let you down
sweetie pi if it gets around
i need silence; you keep making sounds

flat brim sideways i’m bringing 88 back
numbers keep me rational i wish i could escape that
take that passion make a pass watch it play out
balance the equation, X be your Ex now
i better bring it down, i 4 1 ain’t fooling round
feeling like i’d run it if i wasn’t tunneled underground
97169 i’m giving in, 3 i’m conflicted as 9 i’ve ever been
9 3 want 7 please 5 kiss her
1 and she’s giving you a hug fucking missed your
cue but you pulled through doing what you do best
cool on the surface underneath a fucking mess
you were tested, your failure a success
you’re stressed but a little refreshed by the prospect
but not yet, zero, your conscience clear
your constant left

People say what goes around, comes around
i’m underground, underground i’m doing fine
promise you i’ll let you down
sweetie pi if it gets around
i need silence; you keep making sounds

5 days later 8 it’s 2AM i’m wide awake
mind playing games, I hate it 0 patience try & break
the pattern 9 7 doesn’t matter 4 9 it’d be better
had i never met her not sure 4 why
4 now it’s 5 you can count on the third prime
9 like the cloud that you’re on when we flirt i’m
2 fucking 3 confused 0 7 8
whose using who, maybe you so i hesitate
1 new message on my phone, it’s a picture
stripped for the camera on your own - no 6 4
focus 0 6 286 I hate you
2 get a clue, bitch, i don’t want to date you
i played you, 0, made you think you could save me
and you 8 it up playing hero, must be crazy
9 try denying it 9 i don’t mind, please
lying little needy sweetie pi, say goodbye tease

People say what goes around, comes around
i’m underground, underground i’m doing fine
promise you i’ll let you down
sweetie pi if it gets around
i need silence; you keep making sounds

I’m done, yea you ruined all the fun, was it worth it?
I’m gone, which is right where I belong, does it hurt yet?
8 6 saying how you hate this is useless
2 late blaming it on me 8 prove it
wait no, 0, don’t, that’ll backfire quick
the truth is before 3 4 you 8 slipped
i made sure 2 keep the 5 door fucking locked up
3 if you’re looking 4 a fight, you are not tough
2 much on my plate to debate or to defend a
1 sided mistake I never made 1 7 then
0 bitch is pissed cause 6 i’m indifferent
a G like letter fucking 7 in the alphabet
beta butch had better never fuckin come in questioning
or i’m a play her back all 9 fucking messages
so i’m an asshole, ho, it’s what you asked for
no, i ain’t ever coming back, i’m a closed door.
Track Name: Where We Left Off
the house creaked, feeling weak, but the wind raged
winter was coming, we were younger and felt brave
running through the underbrush, above us the pine swayed
nothing up in front of us but wonder and time stayed
still. i’m still there in spirit, it’s sensory
i can hear and feel so it intensely from memory
and see it, just the trees & the breeze, & henry & me
pretending to flee from an invisible enemy
our hearts raced when we raced and the pace meant
acres were endless, time & space were within us
and the finish was a place in the yard in our vision
now i’m sitting in a waiting room awaiting a visit
he’s a patient & they’re saying he’s in pain, I wait a minute
then I gather up the strength i’ve been saving up inside of these
memories to enter in his room, sit by his side, in fear,
crying silently & trying not to let him see my tears
i couldn’t hear statistics even if they did exist for this
his sickness is a mystery; and treatment is a guestimate
and i ain’t at my best, it’s taking everything i have
for me to be the sister sittin with him tryin’ to make him laugh

so i’m caught between a rock & the heartbreak
and i don’t wanna talk about it only for art’s sake
and i don’t want your pity or your idioms, back off
these idiots is acting like they grasp what these raps cost
it’s a sad song, yea, this is real shit
fuck a win this is fatty for the forfeit
fuck a deal, i give a fuck about making money
i’m a storm cloud, i’ll be damned if i fake sunny

too old for a shot, too young to not have one
it could be the plot i'm too cold to come back from
i'm not even whole, i'm a half, i'm a fraction,
i'm lacking, i'm hopeless, the old me is passing
the shadows have won, now my past never had sun
when i look back, it's all bad, never had fun
never laughed, the last chapter was tragedy
they say it'll pass, kiss my ass, i ain't asked, please
therapy aint gone place him in here with me
this mirror's playin games with my face, i can nearly see
his face in my face til the tears blur my vision
now i'm givin in to living like a terminal condition
like each minute brings me closer to the moment i'll be with him 
but i know that he'd be pissed if he'd witness my existence
so i'm tryin climbin' up, it's why i'm finding time to spit this
i'm reminded of my childhood, when I was shy & different
& as quiet as i was, Ry was always one to listen
always thinkin, always bringin out the best in who was with him
with a smile and a presence, it was pleasant to be with him
& at present i’m impressed with just how many people miss him

so i’m caught between a rock & the heartbreak
and i don’t wanna talk about it only for art’s sake
and i don’t want your pity or your idioms, back off
these idiots is acting like they grasp what i have lost
it’s a sad song, yea, this is real shit
fuck a win this is fatty for the forfeit
fuck a deal, i give a fuck about making money
i’m a storm cloud, i’ll be damned if i fake sunny

henry i miss you, remember as kids, dude
you and me were close enough we coulda been twins you 
always knew exactly what i needed and when you
retreated into morning i was mourning for me too
i couldn’t even see a future, now, it was all bleak
like truthfully without you, how could i be me?
i doubt you can hear me, i wish i believed
i bet it’d make it easier to deal with my grief
sometimes i wish i never reasoned with you to sleep
but the doctor said that rest was what the fuck you would need
it’s stressing me out, asking what might of happened
if i told you to fight and not nap, not be passive
and thats when i kinda have to snap myself out of it
it’s a battle but the past is the past & i have to live
i have to give credit where the credit is due
i’d of never had a voice if hadn’t had you

this is where we left off, with a hand shake
and dammit i’ll be damned if i stand in the same place
so i’m caught between a rock & the heart break
and I don’t wanna talk about it only for art’s sake
it’s a sad song, yea, but it suits me
i’m sitting here in ruins but the music just soothes me
it’s beautiful, the moonlight is bright, and the sky’s blue
and i’m a be alright cause when i write i can find you
Track Name: Old Bad Habits
you been through enough/ you been through a lot
you been getting by on being cute and getting off
you had better not try to play or placate me
i'm not a player but i'll crush you if you crush on me
conversation, impression, affectation mistaken for affection
i been waiting, waiting for a while now and
i'm impatient maybe fake a smile now and
i'm a little bit political, i'm partying
independent, popular, and liberal, in charge of things
targeted for ridicule, addicted to the arguing
and ending up an object of debate in any bar i'm in
my boy said "who" with a bottle in his left hand
"get a clue, get a mirror, get a hot friend"
i'm a little more political, i'm partying
targeted for ridicule, addicted to the arguing

control? i never had it, if i had i would have flown
i'm prone to having habits, had an old one grab a hold
no, i'm not an addict, no one know me as a drone
ay, wake the dragon, make that happen, take me home
and i'm a take my castle back and i'm a take my throne
and fly, fuck yeah, i'll rap or die in the game of microphones
i'm goin, i'm going, homie i'm in my zone
but i'm on my own, blowing smoke, it is known

i been through a lot, i been through enough
i been getting by on being high and goofing off
i had better not try to lay or look for blame
i'm not a player, no i'm lying, i'm a fucking game
medication, imperfection, hesitation mistaken for rejection
i been waiting, waiting for a while now and
i'm impatient, maybe fake a smile now and
i'm an idiot savant, so me i'm gifted
trouble when i'm drunk, doubled up if i'm lifted
biffle said "what" with a spliff in her right hand
"give it up, right your name on the nightstand"
and i might land at last in the limelight
you can be my right now or you can be my not quite
and she give a fuck, so me i'm gifted
trouble when i'm drunk doubled up if i'm lifted

control? i never had it, if i had i would have flown
i'm prone to having habits, had an old one grab a hold
no, i'm not an addict, no one know me as a drone
ay, wake the dragon, make that happen, take me home
and i'm a take my castle back and i'm a take my throne
and fly, fuck yeah, i'll rap or die in the game of microphones
i'm goin, i'm going, homie i'm in my zone
but i'm on my own, blowing smoke, it is known

time passes, then it pauses
and the fact is i'm lost as the cause is
would have called but i thought i ought not to
you been through enough, i been though a lot too
time pauses, then it lingers
fuck all this, middle fingers
i been through enough, i been through a lot
i been through with you longer than i knew or thought

control, i never, i never had control
and if i had ever, man whatever, i'd have flown
i'm prone to having habits, had an old one grab a hold
fuck this fucking rap shit fuck this track
just take me home

control? i never had it, if i had i would have flown
i'm prone to having habits, had an old one grab a hold
no, i'm not an addict, no one know me as a drone
ay, wake the dragon, make that happen, take me home
and i'm a take my castle back and i'm a take my throne
and fly, fuck yeah, i'll rap or die in the game of microphones
i'm goin, i'm going, homie i'm in my zone
but i'm on my own, blowing smoke, it is known
Track Name: Accio (Nerdy Girls)
oh my god! danny look at her book! it is so BIG! she looks like one of those muggle quidditch players' girlfriends. i'm gonna go work my magic.

i'm partying wingardium and i can't get much higher
started out in narnia departed for the shire
imperio rebecca black come here and bring me cereal
pack a bowl now give me that and go, be gone, be quiet
you serious? like azkaban! bitch, don't make me ask again
lumos and leviosa, hufflepuff and pass it then
speak friend and enter every venue like you factored in
a battle and you're glad to see now enemies and settle in
or better yet, let them witches know they uniforms is crucio
you're crushing on em hornier than unicorns
cue the chorus, my dysphoria is scary, huh
what's mine is yours, the moria the merrier

nerdy girls, everywhere i go, accio, accio, oh (x2)

your man ain't killing tracks, he's avada kedaverage
give the man a mana break, yeah you'll be glad you did
he's in the back, yappin, hanging with hagrid
in fact he said he'd rather take a nap, what a drag kid
speaking of drag kids and rapping arachnids
i keep on meaning to ask, are you distracted?
no reason really, oh you know how it goes
i was only hoping you would open at the clothes
there's probably a prophecy for me inside the ministry
regarding you on top of me and topless in a minute, see
we might as well get on with it, we on a path to destiny
i got a magic staff, you shall not pass on sex with me
ya next to me, we in the dark, and from the deep there's drumming
your heart? well i'm stark naked, call me winter cuz i'm coming
yes my precious yes, you're my everything, my one ring
you're my quidditch pitch, am i beating off or bludgering?

nerdy girls, everywhere i go, accio, accio, oh (x2)
you know i'm a wizard, you're the wand that wants me
come on baby feint, like you're doing it wronski
i can read you like a page in a book
you're a rare player character but i mage you, i mage you look

i don't want to quarrel, quirrell, did i st st stutter dear?
you're looking adorable or it could be the butter beer
double trouble boil and bubble something wicked's coming near
show no fear! false alarm. it's only albus dumblequeer.
expelliarmus, aw, ya find my charm disarming, darling?
well, if i'm being honest, you're the chosen one to get it on with
fine, let's get off, oh, you're right i'm being forward
trying to get you in my house before your ass was even sorted
i apologize! the polyjuice produced a scrotum
so i summoned up a bitch real quick
the fuck did you expect patronum?
i'm JK can't you see the way my eyes are rowling
haters gonna hate me cuz i'm in they dungeon tr tr trolling
they're embarrassed cuz they're staring into erised
where harry saw his parents in the mirror but in there instead
i'm in their head, they're seeing me, fuckin weak emcees
won't do well, you dwell in dreams, forget it
give the mic to me

give the mic to me
i'm a do ya damage
trying to cypher? please.
i'm like mischief managed.
all ya snitches vanished.
i release the seekers.
clap if you believe
tink ya glow is growing weaker!
fuck it though you better know i'll only blow a speaker
and i eatin either and you ain't even mind
get the fuck out neverland
you'll never land a clever line
all my hooks are hotter and
i still got every hand of mine

nerdy girls, everywhere i go, accio, accio, oh (x2)
you know i'm a wizard, you're the wand that wants me
come on baby feint, like you're doing it wronski
i can read you like a page in a book
you're a rare player character but i mage you, i mage you look

put ya hands up, nah stop it
ya look awkward put em in ya pocket
pew pew warlock and pop it
bring a ring to mordor and drop it
you know i'm a wizard, you're the wand that wants me
come on baby feint, like you're doing it wronski
i can read you like a page in a book
you're a rare player character but i mage you, i mage you look
put ya hands up, nah stop it
ya look awkward put em in ya pocket
pew pew warlock and pop it
bring a ring to mordor and drop it
everywhere i go accio, accio
i mage you, i mage you look

tee hee hee samwise emcee
can't carry a tune but you can carry me
i like being me, can't carry a tune but i can bury a beat
tee hee hee samwise emcee
can't carry a tune but you can carry me

man, i don't know
it's like
sometimes i just wake up in the morning and i'm like
how the fuck am i a grown up?